This is me…. and I need therapy. There I said it ! Really it’s not a big deal, in fact I think if you never ever thought you needed therapy you are missing out. Missing out on personal growth and learning lots of insight about yourself.
Even Katy Perry or rather Katherine Perry live streamed her session. See link below.
I also love learning new words like parental child or Cognitive Behavior therapy.
Parental child- for those of you who would like to know is usually the oldest more responsible of the siblings and most times a female. To be clear the only part of the definition I fall into is the “oldest” sibling. I learned this word while talking about the grieving process and my journey with losing my dad.
I’ve participated in therapy for about 7 years, though not straight through because the last two years I took a break. The search for a new therapist is always a tough one. In fact I despise it and almost always dread the first appointment. Sometimes you know right away that you and the therapist will not make a good match. I’ve gone through quite a few. It’s important you connect with your therapist. At first in the beginning when I started therapy I didn’t know that. I thought it was clinical and it was just suppose to stick and miraculously work.
Sometimes I ended up giving therapy to my own therapist or I’ve had a therapist cry after sharing some deep parts of my life. I think that particular therapist probably needed good therapy herself.
I also had the judgy therapist (GAWD those are the worst ) like they can’t even fake their distain for you.
I met my new therapist on Friday and instantly connected. He’s great and he did a lot of homework on me. Our first appointment was about a month wait time but well worth it. He’s much more up to speed technology wise than my therapists in the past. I was able to provide a write up on myself before getting to the appointment. To my suprise he actually read it. I even forgot some of things I wrote and had to be brought up to speed on some of my other issues. Lol.
I start Cognitive Behavioral therapy and I’m super excited about it. If anyone cares to read the actual definition. See below.
All I gathered is it can’t hurt and I just might be able to retrain my mind and something about my mind’s plasticity. Either way I’m down for anything that does not require medication.
Things I’m currently trying to help with my mental state.
1) Meditation. Although I haven’t tried yet I enjoy listening to mediation by Jason Stephenson on YouTube. Authentic you meditation. Thank you to my Pepper Vintage friend for this suggestion.
2) I listen to Tibetan singing bowls while I work. It eases the stress. Tibetan singing bowls
3) I set aside Sunday mornings for coloring. I can’t color worth a damn and it takes me hours to finish one page. It’s soothing to only think about what shade of pink to use.
Currently reading and coloring You Are Here
4) Sage smudging see previous post. I’ve yet to do a redo of the last one. I will use Sage smudging 101 as a guide the next time.
This business of having a mental illness and trying to keep balance is some hard work. It’s exhausting and so I push on looking for ways that might help. I’ve tried medication and it’s just not for me. So here I am on this semi holistic journey to keep my mind and spirit balanced.
Closing my post with the quote below. I don’t know who the quote belongs to but this is how I view my therapy will take me.
You already are, the peace you are looking for. Be still and know that.