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Postcards from Pepper


September is Suicide Prevention month and I have prepared a new Pepper Post Card for this month’s campaign. Starting to tomorrow on my Facebook Pepper Vintage I will be asking for my friends of Pepper to send in a photo with caption why life is beautiful. It can be your grand baby, your fur baby, yourself , a place you love to go like the beach, whatever it is that makes life beautiful for you.

My approach is a little different. I want to take this month to celebrate life and remind us all how beautiful life can be. Anyone participating will receive the special Thank you Pepper Card, to add to this I will be selecting one person to receive a Pepper Self Care Package with Pepper Goodies and things to help you relax and practice self care.

This subject is near and dear to my heart. I am a attempted suicide survivor 3x’s. At my worst time with my illness and my last suicide attempt I decided I would not let my illness win. I have been fighting back ever since. Recently I lost a really great friend to suicide and I know too many people who have had their lives changed forever because of suicide. While trying to cope with the loss of my friend, I decided to celebrate him. I gathered all the pictures I could of his travels and all the wonderful things I saw in his life. I wanted to focus and keep remembering how beautiful his life was even if he didn’t think so. He will be greatly missed and I am forever changed by him.

I hope one day as a society we can get to the point where instead of judging one another we can have people feel loved and safe. If they are hurting they aren’t ashamed to say “I am not ok, I need help.”

Let’s keep talking and loving one another. In all the darkness there is light at the end of the tunnel. Never give up. Much love, Pepper


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  • Kelly

    I so needed to read your story today. I’m a 2x survivor. I also lost a dear friend, 6yrs ago this month. I am struggling right now, flipping between anger and desperation. I am just so sad and unhappy right now and there really is no reason for it. I have a good, simple life. Reading what you’ve experienced reminds me to fight through this. To be stronger than my illness. I WILL be OK Thank you Pepper xo

    August 31, 2017 at 11:38 pm Reply
    • peppervintage

      Kelly I understand the emotion of being sad and unhappy it’s so hard to see past it when it’s happening. I still have my moments where I feel tired and my mind lies to me. I am fortunate to have a good partner and support system where I can say I am not ok. They encourage me to keep fighting and remind me I am needed here. You are not alone , sending lots of love your way.

      September 1, 2017 at 9:45 pm Reply
  • Daneen Radford

    I absolutely love that your are raising awareness for this cause. My family is troubled with neurological and mental illnesss. Inherited down generations. My great Aunt committed suicide when I was just a little girl, her sister, my grandmother, also attempted suicide. They were beautiful, strong women who needed hope, help and understanding. I’m so glad we have the resources we do in an age where we can all make a difference.

    September 1, 2017 at 9:03 am Reply
  • peppervintage

    Daneen I am so sorry for your loss. We are making progress but have much work to do. I am grateful that we have come this far. We have to keep talking and making it safe for people to share with us. Sending hugs and love your way.

    September 1, 2017 at 9:42 pm Reply
  • Donnetti E.

    I wake up everyday with a sadness that I’ve been fighting for over 3 year’s now. Sometimes my sadness is so strong that I wonderful when will all this end. I’m in counseling and on medication but I can’t see a change. I refuse to let this disease get the best of me. So I’m living one day at a time.

    September 3, 2017 at 6:40 pm Reply
    • peppervintage

      Hi Donnetti. Thank you for your comment. It is a struggle I understand all too well. It feels as if you try anything and everything and nothing works but I believe at some point there will be a light in the darkness. I’ve battled this illness for the last 11 years actively. I am now in CBT therapy and although it is intense it has helped a lot. I am so glad you are here with us, keep fighting. There are many of us fighting right there with you. Much love to you.

      September 3, 2017 at 6:46 pm Reply
  • Theresa Lowe

    I have never attempted suicide, but my 21 year old son did back on April first of this year and he came close to succeeding . . . He sat in freezing cold water for two hours and almost froze to death and he ended up in the hospital with hypothermia and was admitted to the psychiatric ward for three days . . . He still struggles everyday, but he is trying to focus on medical school now and also trying to get better . . . The reason I am commenting is because I will always support anything to do with suicide prevention and I wanted you to know I appreciate you and the awareness you bring to people!! Keep it up!! <3 <3 <3 <3

    September 4, 2017 at 2:48 pm Reply
    • peppervintage

      Hi Theresa. Thank you for your comment. I am so glad your son is here with us and he made it through. I can only imagine how scary that was for you. I lost my friend to suicide and I know at the moment he felt like we were all better off without him. The mind is bully during that time. Pushing those thoughts out can be so overwhelming. I have learned from Therapy to trust my support system, I know I can reach out to them and they will not judge me. They remind how much I am loved and that I matter. Your son is fighting back and I wish him well , I know that dark place too well. Hugs to you and your son.

      September 5, 2017 at 8:44 pm Reply
  • Clarissa Velasco-Whicker

    HI! Someone very close to me tried to kill himself about a month ago.
    He did hurt himself. He’s on medications, and getting treatment.
    It’s really hard when it’s so close to home.

    September 6, 2017 at 10:44 pm Reply
    • peppervintage

      Clarissa. I am sorry to hear about your friend but I am glad he is still here with us. Your friend getting treatment is a great step.It really is hard. I know for me it felt as if I failed my friend but I know that is not true. Keep talking with him and let him know its ok to reach out. Sending much love to you both.

      September 7, 2017 at 8:17 am Reply
  • Diana

    Mental illness is on both sides of my family. My father killed himself when I was 14. That was 38 years ago and I still grieve. Most recently, I was diagnosed as bipolar. I had one close call, I was going to just take that bottle of pills and go to sleep forever, but a kitten came to my window, scratching and begging to be brought in from the snow. That was my turning point and that is another story. Thank you for bringing this to light.

    September 11, 2017 at 10:49 pm Reply
    • peppervintage

      Diana thank you for sharing. I am so sorry about your dad. I can’t imagine what you went through it’s so hard especially at young age, I am glad you are still here and that little kitten was a true blessing. Keep fighting you are not alone . Sending much love to you.

      September 12, 2017 at 12:06 pm Reply
  • Heather

    Im a survior of numerous suicide attemps, survior of years of molestation, many rapes and a former cutter. I find my inner strength and peace threw music, writing and my children. Took me many years to come to terms with my role in this life and for me to gain a shred of love for myself. It is a lifelong battle however to live, love and be free is possible. You are valued!

    September 13, 2017 at 7:16 pm Reply
    • peppervintage

      Hi Heather. Thank you for sharing with me. I am so glad you are here with us. I don’t understand why evil people exists and why innocent people suffer at their hands. I am sorry for you what you had to go through and I understand how tough it was to try to heal from all of that. You are valued and you matter never forget that. Sending lots of love to you.

      September 14, 2017 at 7:43 am Reply

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