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Stop Searching

One day while I was going on and on about trying to find purpose and make things work and what should I do with my life, blah blah blah. Right in the middle of my existential woe is me crisis I received the most valuable and treasured advice from my spouse.

He said simply “ stop searching”.

He is wise and most times it takes me about 6 months to catch up to his wisdom. He is so gracious about it too. He’ll offer advice and almost immediately I’ll frown at it only to come back to him months later as if it was my own idea. Usually he’ll give me his smug smile, the smile that says I told you so without being a jerk about it.

When he said stop searching , it was one of the few times I stopped in my tracks and said “You’re right !”

Lately I have really tried to be still and listen to the universe. I let it guide me rather than me trying to control it. This year I have also made a conscious effort in going with my heart and my intuition.  You can’t go wrong with listening to your heart right? What could go wrong…. Except that you put yourself out there, allow yourself to be vulnerable and maybe possibly be laughed at. How bad can it be lol.

I come up with lots of crazy ideas that are sometimes met with giggles or advice like “how about you do adult things first, work really hard at your job move up the ladder and when you retire you can do all these things” or my favorite one “take care of your kids, you’re a mom and moms can’t have dreams until AFTER the kids bleed you dry of all your energy and money”. I totally don’t listen to that type of talk and those people are no longer in my life. I am a big believer in going after your passions even while adulting and raising kids.

I am allowing the Universe /God / and my heart to take the reins.  I welcome the sneers and the giggles because we have only ONE life and I am running with my passion. I was born to do things, to serve and to help others. That is who I am. I am no longer trying to go against that.

This year I started my care package program and I am overwhelmed by the responses to it. I set some pretty big goals this year and one of them is to send out love light and hope to those suffering from mental illness. We must do better as a society to let people know they are not alone, that they matter and the world needs them. If we can just give people a little hope imagine how much better the world will be.

I am still on my 2018 goals as well.

No toxic people

No negativity

And only positive vibes.

I hope that 2018 is treating you well and that you focus on the positive around you. If you ever feel in despair and alone ,please know that you are not. There are people on this earth that care and want you to know that you are loved. Be kind to yourself  , be gentle to yourself and most of all love yourself.


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  • Beautifulbraincollective

    This is so spot on. I can relate to all of the things that you mentioned. One thing that I particularly resonate with is the idea of trusting my gut and intuition. It is the best advice ever!

    March 17, 2018 at 9:14 am Reply
    • peppervintage

      Thank you so much 🙂

      March 20, 2018 at 5:00 pm Reply
  • Christina

    I ordered 4, imperfectly perfect T-shirt’s, amd received them on time and they are just perfectly precious! Very nicely made and the fit is so nice! My daughter suffers from Bi polar and let me say when she saw her shirt she smiled from ear to ear!

    I have never felt better about a purchase than this one! I love that I’m giving back and in some small way and in return others who need a pick up on hard days, will be able to receive one.

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    Sweetness, you are amazing! Thank you for your dedication, it helps so many. Those who suffer have a friend in you, and those of us who are caregivers can better understand how to help more effectively. You truly are an angle among us💗

    April 12, 2018 at 9:42 am Reply
    • peppervintage

      Thank you Christina for all of your support. I am grateful the universe as put us in each other lives. Even if only virtually and I am forever grateful. Sending you hugs and love to you , your daughter and your sweet grandbaby <3

      May 7, 2018 at 11:17 am Reply
  • May

    Yes! I have always had some kind of project or side hustle or whatever, in addition to being home with the kids. I think it has helped me in the long term because now that my kids are older (9, 12, 17) I am not finding myself losing my identity because my kids have different needs now. There’s also the added benefit of modeling this behavior for our children to see. 🙂

    April 21, 2018 at 12:28 am Reply
    • peppervintage

      I totally agree with this. It is very important for my children especially my daughter to see me as human being with dreams and aspirations. I Thank you for your comments <3

      May 7, 2018 at 11:18 am Reply

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